blanket.

peek by peek, you will be lifted.
pull by pull, i will draw you.
and when the light burns the contours of your face,
bask in the fire, and be one with the flame.

loved and burnt,
squid.

this year and the year before are by far the worst years i have come across.
i had no idea i owed 2 years of karma. well, maybe its for hurting Estella.
Right Est?

Anyway, its been fluctuating on extremes.
Fast, happy, adrenaline joy and then down, down, down.
Break the curse. I'll walk away a better dancer.
And i want to dance to a happier beat.

Its ironic how much joy i portray and how much pain i swallow.
How much i forgive and how little i forget.

On a random note, this has been annoying me a lot lately.
Stop asking for my IC. Argh. I am definitely above 18.
Geez.

I'm not sleepy yet. I'm going to the doctor's tomorrow.
Went today but he was close. My eye is spoilt.
And i need help.

I never understood the context, "numb by the pain",
till now.