SQUIDIOLICIOUS

i don't know anymore.
i don't need anymore.
i don't want anymore.
i just want to shut the world out.
and no i don't feel anymore.
i'm not angry, not sad, not disappointed, not lonely.
its more of a physical pain, an achy feeling in my chest.
i brush off almost immediately upon feeling it.

i don't try anymore.
i don't feel guilty or obliged.
this is not selfish.
this is not selfless either.
this is nothing.

i feel as though i am disappearing.
its not a bad feeling. its not a good one.
its absolutely nothing. zilt. nada. zero.

what i put on display is just me playing along.
what i show and what i say is just me being humanly.
but what i really am is something no one will ever know.

no you cannot handle it.
and i don't care.

i don't expect anything.
anymore.