SQUIDIOLICIOUS

To a quiet year ahead



yeah. they call me Lily. And my full name is Wan Azlina Laili.
Everyone knows me as Squid. And I turn 24 today.

The above is a picture taken from my phone.
the only device i had that can take photos at the moment.
I was led, eyes closed upon request by my younger brother to the kitchen.
When i opened my eyes, i was standing in my dark kitchen.
looking at a litted candle accompanied by a birthday song.
my first reaction was, i was surprised. i hugged my grandma.
got kisses from her and my mom. and i teared.
i think it is very sweet of them.
they dun usually do these kinda things.
in fact this is a first.
i was very touched.
and yeah. i felt loved.

on another note.
its time i take better control of my life and be more honest with myself.
i am not happy. i'm not.
i'm not that sad either.
i just feel empty.
and all alone at times.
and sometimes i feel that everytime i think good of smt.
it just goes bad unexpectedly.
i dunno who my friends really are.
i dunno who i can trust and who i can turn to.
and i dunno if i can make it all okay.
but i do know that this year i'm gonna be honest with you and myself.
and i will appreciate what life has to offer.
appreciate my family and friends.
little moments.
and be more determined.

year after year.
i've always made the same wish.

and my wish has always been for all of you.
Have a great day =)