SQUIDIOLICIOUS

16 more days!!

when i say jump, you say how high.

i received sorta bad news earlier.
totally pushed me back like nailed against the wall.
in a not sex me up kinda way.
and it brought me down.
i took what i had for granted.
i couldn't think straight.
not that i can ever.
but well u noe what i mean.
i slept it off.
the entire day.
and i got up.
it was still buggin me.
didn't get any work done.
went out for a jog instead.
felt slightly better.
then a friend came over.
and we took a nice ride to i dunno where.
stop by the side of the road for a smoke.
and the stars.

i'm back. less troubled.
but still am.

i need to do my work.
this can't be happening now.
well it is.
so i need to figure out how to be okay.
and move on.

on a side note.
i'm tired of saying sorry.
i'm tired of assuring.
i'm tired of explaining myself.
i'm tired of being optimistic.
so judge me and leave.
i dun need this.
i dun need anyone.
i dun need anything.
so hate me.

i really dun give a flying fuck anymore.
its so hard to please everyone or anyone these days.